わかりません

So I had a moment of freaking out over something that really shouldn't freak me out just now.

I had been doing the thing where I pace around thinking about things because I'm restless and think all the time when I was shocked to realize that I had been thinking about imaginary, hypothetical conversations in Japanese.

Two weeks since that intensive course and it still affects my daily life. I should be happy about this, but I'm too busy being freaked out. It might be partially that I feel like I'm not good enough at Japanese yet that I should be imagining up hypothetical conversations like that, but 　if I think about potentially talking to a Japanese person enough, it only makes sense that I should be speaking in Japanese.

Or something.